So in my last post I told y’all the perks of being an English major, so I guess I should inform you of the fears. Well besides the obvious in trying to decide what to do after graduation there’s the fear of having your story workshopped and talked about. That’s right! We workshopped my story in Creative Writing on Friday and it was one of the most nerve racking things I’ve ever had to sit through. I had to sit in a “cone of silence” while everyone talked about my story as if I wasn’t there.They had to state what they liked and what they didn’t like. I was supposed to go on Wednesday and was all prepared with duct tape so that I wouldn’t be tempted to defend my story, but of course I was getting sick and couldn’t breath through my nose so there was no tape on Friday. Anyway, even though it was a scary and nerve racking experience it also wasn’t as bad as I feared. My fellow english majors were very nice about their comments and were giving me some great positives as well as some very constructive criticism. There are definitely some things I need to consider fixing up in my story but my classmates were very helpful!
Now on to the major fear that seems to consume my life with this choice in major…What do I do with the rest of my life after graduation!!??? I know I should be enjoying my senior year, and believe me I am, but I can’t help but hear that voice in the back of my head nagging about the fact that graduation will come sooner than I think (scary thought I know). It’s not that my options are closed off by being an English major, the problem is that there are so many options that I can’t decide!!!! Jobs need someone that can analyize and write well so what types of jobs do I look into??? I’ve always wanted to write, but what’s going to pay the bills while I write?? A question my dad is constantly asking. Or do I go to graduate school? Always a possibility but then what do I focus in? Creative Writing would be a blast, but then how do I afford graduate schools and the loans that will be staring at me when I get done? What do i do with a masters in Creative Writing? And simply where do I GO!!!??? Not to mention to get to graduate school I’d have to take the GRE (I thought I was done with standardized tests!!).
Other than those two major fears being an English major is a blast, once you get past all the reading that’s required in a short amount of time!! Something I seem to like to procrastinate with like everything else!! So I think I’ll just keep pushing off that voice in the back of my head for just a little bit longer and deal with the week ahead of me. Take life day by day, week by week, cause every day is not a guarntee. Answers will come eventually right?
Till next time y’all, keep calm and stay busy